Everybody's twisted. Everybody's crazy. Everybody's right. Everybody's wrong.
I'm only writing this because there's a lot of things swimming around in my mind that I want to put on paper so I can figure out what exactly I want to yell about. Things I cannot quantify, when I hit the keys, the harsh click-clack of the keyboard calms my rough nerves.
I'm not a cruel person, I am very caring, to those who care. I am judgmental. I am not very diplomatic. I'm very selfish about those I love, possessive isn't the right word.. Why I'm telling you all this before you continue to read is because, it's very hard to understand what I'm saying unless you try to see it through my eyes. Oh and I'm good with words.
I'm not an elitist.
I do not like people who believe they are better than the rest solely because of which city/school they come from.
Now. Let's try to get to the point. Hazy as it may be. This is only a rant.
A few weeks ago someone asked if I was a misanthrope, and I've always wondered if I were. And then proceeded to conclude that we all were. But there is something special about me. I'm very protective of myself. If you do manage to hurt me, it's because you caught me off guard, I really like you and you were being a bitch, or I trusted you. And I trust a lot, not entirely, just some people with some things. And the thing with people is, everybody's an asshole. If you seem a little tough, they'll take you for a ride.
I'm not a cheerless friendless person I assure you. I love a bunch of people with all my heart, rain or shine I will stand by them. Whoever it is I've to protect them from, I will. Whatever it is I've to take I will. And I will never let go of them. All this cheese apart, even these people can be morons, and I never tell them they were being assholes unless they ask me to.
I shrug everything off in life, a motley of losers two years ago tried to ruin my peace. It did disturb me yes, but I never let them see it. I'm cold to those I don't know, I'm cold to those who hurt me. I'm cold to those who leave me behind.
Oh and I cannot take bullshit.
Don't tell me you care unless you do.
Don't push me around cause I let you.
Don't tell me I'm immature cause I'm not pretentious.
I do not love with cause.
I cannot act like I love.
I've said and made the decisions I have so far cause I've believed in them. I'm not perfect. I never asked for your support.
I'm only angry cause I have every right to be.
